Good news, bad news.

I wonder if I will be able to keep up and not crawl into a dark room for a century. Seems nothing is working right, and when it does, it seems almost worst.

The Silverguard is no more. Maybe for the best… but I feel alone.

Verrin said he loves me…but he cannot choose and is mixed up and there is nothing I can tell him to help him.

Ysabelle got married…bounded her soul to Kaste when the said groom is also mixed up in his feelings. I… I got mad at her because again I learned the thing by incident, I know I made a mistake but… why can’t someone tell me frankly, and delibaretly something for once… And I truly wanted to be with her a bit… I know I am selfish but I can’t help it.

And if I am not selfish once in a while, I will just stay alone in my corner, I guess. That is what my teacher told me, a long long time ago: When you listen, people hardly want to hear you.

Master summoned me for an audience tomorrow. I wonder what will happen…

~ by marillawen on June 10, 2007.