Madness and horror lies behind the corner

I can finally sit down and write what horrible things I have heard, seen and felt recently. The home I found within the Silverguard is scarier than safe in my eyes.

I have seen Verrin’s portrait of Mazikeen made on leather, at first I thought it was a poor and crazy Scarlet zealot, but no…I learned from Ysabelle (who was shaken…understandable) and his own mouth that it was from a woman, a human one, that he tortured. I was barely able to keep my calm when he was saying how in a way it was not his fault…that he was mad.

Was… No. Is. That he Is mad.

But I will serve him what he deserves…and even if it would cost me my rank or anything. That is, if I am caught.

I also saw why Erunen called himself a monster. He likes..no. Loves to mutilate people. I was barely able to walk and speak while I was watching. But the difference between Verrin and him is that Erunen at least wants to change…or he is saying this so I would not run away. I don’t know.

That same night (and I mean including the thing with Verrin..) I saw that Lisette had the same….liking as Erunen. That scared me, and creeped me out. I don’t know what to think anymore… Are they all like that? I do not want to think this but…the thought is not leaving my mind.

Yesterday I went with Fineas in the Jungle and he showed me a nice place with a waterfall. That was a real escape for my mind and I was enjoying it. And “mister” Fineas decides to jump off the cliff, out of nowhere. I really wanted to kill him after I found out he was alive, believe me.

I just recieved a package, I wonder what it is…

~ by marillawen on April 15, 2007.