Spring brings its share of love and tenderness
It is driving me crazy.
Everywhere I look I see love -and what usually comes with it-. I talked to milady Lisette and mister Erunen about Verrin (Yes, the very guy who keeps bugging me, now it seems he wants to be nice…let’s see how long it will last.) I learned he was … pure of heart. If I would have known, I’d never tell him those things I said last week! But I told him. Maybe that’s why he freaked out…who knows.
The said couple… they are lovely to watch. And disturbing to hear. Fifteen years I haven’t met the warmth of a man and they..keep… speak so openly. I think I looked like a rose, with my too red skin and my nails darting at my hips.
Last night though, Erunen and I went to spar a bit. I truly love to, a great lesson of humility and a great exercice. I’m not too bad even if I know he lets me some loose and doesn’t fight to his full capacity. We talked… I think I solved a problem with what I heard, but the first one, the most important if we can call it that way, is still there. When I thought I would go to sleep, he asked me when was the last time I danced. Two years, five months and thirteen days, I replied. It is quite easy to remember the date since it was at a ball. And then…we danced. Nothing intimate of course, I would never have allowed such thing since he is engaged, but that feeling overwhelmed me.
Someone danced with me. It felt wonderful, to live like this again. No lust, no love, simple tenderness between two people. And no hidden thoughts since he is engaged. Ah! It was wonderful.
He keeps saying he is a monster, but I doubt it. Milady Lisette is so caring for him, I am sure everything will be alright.
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