It all came in a dream.

What a fool I am sometimes!

My mind played tricks on me and, like the fool I am, it won. But not for long! I found answers in my dreams.

I…realized when I woke up this morning that I love Ysabelle. A love that is like the one between two people? no. She is so…soft, and caring that my feelings betrayed me. On the other hand, it was a sweet betrayal, for the time it lasted. I was…getting used to the idea of “Love”, the one that so many seeks, to love a woman. That thought still scare me, but I was ready to live with it. But now, no more problems. I know exactly what lies in my heart. All I want is her to stay how she is, for I see how I wanted to be, so long ago.

That is what overwhelms me each time I set eyes on her. That is also what makes me smile when she speaks.

Alright, I admit. She is cute to watch also.

On another note, I talked to Alkaiser again. And there also I can say I know what lies in my heart. I do not seek his love for I know I would not get it. At least, with our agreement, we both know where we are going…

~ by marillawen on March 28, 2007.